What is LOVE? 

Love is red, 

when that someone turns your way and your stomach flips, butterflies flutter and your toes curl.

It is blue, 

when voices rise and your hands ball into fists until both of your hearts crash and feelings freeze over until nothing is right and everything is numb.

Finally Black, 

when all your dreams spin to its end and you are helpless as you gasp and pant and beg for a second chance but pictures have been burned and memories have been forgotten – then you realize nothing is ever going back.

It is love when you cuddle in bed, kiss and fight and make-up – when you hope and long for a future.
It is not love when you leave and step out of that door.

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Decoding The Boys – 1 

1 –  Weirdos
Javee De Villa

Uh oh.
‘Di yata namin masisimulan ‘yung game. Ten AM ang nasa schedule, almost 9:35 na. Tapos, wala pa kami sa Macapagal. Damn. First game pa naman ng Intersci ngayon. Ayokong malate! My brother would be playing today and I’d be doomed kung malalaman niyang pati ba naman dito ay mahuhuli ako!

Badtrip. Sunud-sunod na din ang mga texts sa’kin ng mga kaibigan ko. It wasn’t really my fault though, not really. Ito kasing si Lhyle, e. Ang tagal bago ako sinundo. He said he’d pick me up at around 8:30, dumating ba naman ng past nine. Heto tuloy. Dapat pala sumabay na lang ako kina kuya.

For the nth time, huminto kami dahil sa traffic jam. Napalingon ako kung nasan na kami. Yes! Macapagal na rin pala. If it kept up, aabot pa kami. Sana.
Kung hindi, malilintikan talaga sa’kin ‘tong kasama ko!

I frowned deeply and anxiously gripped my phone. The tisoy guy beside me sent a sidelong glance and smiled in mischief.

“Chill, J. ‘Di naman tayo mala-late,” Lhyle, my best friend, coaxed,”Relax ka nga lang d’yan. Nakaka-tensed ka e.”

Inirapan ko sya, kunwaring nakasimangot na. “Pag ako pinagalitan ni kuya, yari ka talaga sa’kin.”

Well, not really pagagalitan pero kahit na. Nakakaguilty pa rin na ma-late sa game nya, lalo na’t first game nya ‘to in this year’s UAAP. See, star player ng university namin si kuya Jacob and this was very special to him. Add pa the fact na nakasalalay dito ang dignity namin. It wasn’t new naman kasi na may bad rivalry talaga between Intersci and Centrex U. Though syempre, ganon naman talaga kapag UAAP season na. Hindi lang between us; even other universities have rivalries as well, ‘yun lang, mas maingay ang sa amin because of social media incidents.

That’s why excited din talaga akong manood ngayon. Bukod sa first time ko to watch a live match, I had to see this game because of some bet. For the longest time, my brother was bragging about this game kaya my sibs and I decided to play a silly bet. We need to guess kung ilang points ang maipapasok ni Kuya Jacob. I opted for twenty points just to play safe.

“Bakit? Ano’ng gagawin mo sakin?” sagot ni Lhyle, habang lumalawak ang ngiti.

I glowered at him.

Lhyle grinned. Sarap bigwasan.

In a beat, umandar na ulit ang traffic flow and fortunately, nagtuluy-tuloy na kaya nakarating na din kami sa MOA arena.

As soon as we parked the car, I ran my way inside. Mabuti na lang pala at naka white converse lang ako ngayon at ‘di yung usual boots na suot ko. Less hassle!

When we got in, relief immediately flooded me. ‘Di pa nagsisimula. Medyo sakto din yun dating namin dahil two minutes late lang naman.

Grabe. Iba pala talaga ang vibes ng UAAP, noh?

Kakapasok pa lang namin pero ramdam ko na yung tension at excitement. ‘Yung totoo. Lahat ng inis ko kanina nawala sa isang iglap. Nakakahawa yung atmosphere! Tas, halos dalawang kulay lang ang makikita ngayon, those that are supporting the Red centaurs (kalaban namin) and us, the blue Eagles. We went to the VIP area na, kung nasa’n ang mga kaibigan namin. May mga bumati on our way down. Medyo kilala kasi kami ni Lhyle sa campus.

And did I ever mention the guy’s a total player?

Our friends perked up when they saw us.

“Ang tagal nyo, girl,” agad na sabi ni Anjo nang makaupo na kami. “Anyare? Kinain lang ng daan?”

“Ang tagal nito e. Nakipagdate pa yata sa mga chics nya,” I shrugged. Lhyle just snickered.

“As usual,” Max said, rolling her eyes. “Dapat pala sa’min ka na sumabay.”

“Oo nga e. ‘Di bale, next time.” Tumawa ako, sabay tingin sa paligid.”Wait, ba’t ‘di pa nagsisimula?”

Anjo sighed. “Technical issues daw. Ang tagal nga e. Excited pa naman ako, fckers.”

Yes, sports junkies kaming magkakaibigan. It’s entirely the reason why we have boy nicknames kahit na puro babae kami. And what’s ironic? Si Lhyle na nag-iisang lalaki, sya pa ‘tong pambabae ang pangalan.

Weird, diba?

Si Anjo, (Angelou), is the to-go girl pag dating sa basketball. From animes down to local and international games, updated ‘yan. Her dad’s a coach kasi sa university namin.

Si Maxxie naman, (Maxinne), is our volleyball team’s captain ball. Sa’min lahat, sya ang pinaka-boyish kung kumilos but she’s a princess at heart.

Then there’s Hiro, (Hiromi), our Japanese tennis player. Fierce sa court, but outside those games? A total wallflower.

And the last, my best friend since elementary days.

Ahron, (Reah), is our student council president, campus queen, and a famous model. She doesn’t play any sports, like me, but we’re both into it just the same.
As for me, council treasurer ako and our dance troupe’s VP.
Si Lhyle, wala. Kina-career ang pambababae nya.

“Sino ba sinusuportahan mo?” I heard Hiro ask Anjo.

“Ano bang klaseng tanong yan? Syempre team natin. Duh!” Anjo replied, rolling her eyes.

Ahron smirked. “Really, now? Hindi si Racel Gutierez?”

Namula si Anjo. “Uy, hindi noh!”

Napatawa ako. “Talaga lang ah.”

“Oo nga, promise! Kainis kayo! Kahit gwapo si Racel, mas hot pa rin si Jacob noh!”

“Oo na, oo na,” natatawang sagot ko.

Matagal ko nang naririnig yung Racel Gutierez na ‘yon. Magaling nga daw at may hitsura. Well, considering na sya ang team captain ng kabila, baka nga. Nacurious tuloy ako bigla. Grabe kasi ang inis d’yan nina kuya, e.

“Pero real talk, mas gumaling daw yung kabilang team,” Max said suddenly.
“Dahil daw dun sa Justin. Bago ba nila ‘yon?”

“Mamaw yun, si Mercedez,” singit ni Lhyle. “This year lang sumali sa varsity nila pero magaling nga.”

“Wag nga kayo,” sabat ko. “Baka ma-jinx nyo pa.”
Nagtawanan sila.

“Oo nga naman. Nagagalit si boss oh. Sister complex,” biro ni Lhyle kaya inirapan ko na lang sya.

Suddenly, nag-vibrate ang phone ko.

Kuya Andrei:
Come outside.

Napakunot noo ko.

Me:
Why? Where?

Kuya Andrei:
Parking lot. Here with the others.

Huh. Anong meron? Bakit nasa labas pa sila e magsisimula na ‘yung game. Either way, nagpaalam ako sa mga kaibigan ko and did as told. Finding them was easy. May mga group of girls ba naman na nakapaligid. And they were also a tall, handsome bunch. Really hard to miss.

“Kuya!” sigaw ko, getting their attention.

Instantly, four heads turned to look at me. Nakakatuwa. Kumpleto kaming magkakapatid ngayon. Kumaway ako sa kanila. Napangiti naman sila at tumango sa’kin.

Lumapit ako, ignoring the girls whispering around us.

“What are you dudes doing here? Baka mag-start na yung game,” sabi ko nang makalapit ako.

I fist-bumped with them by way of greeting.

Kuya Travis smiled at me. Our eldest. “Moral support, bunso, bago magsimula ‘yung laro.”

“Mukhang kabado pa ‘tong si Jacob e. Sinamahan lang namin,” natatawang dagdag ni kuya Chris, pangalawa samin.

“Asa naman, tol,” sagot ni kuya Jacob. Then he told me, “Ang tagal mo. Kanina ka pa namin hinahanap. Ang liit kasi e, ang hirap makita.”

I frowned. “Kapal mo, kuya. ‘Di ko kasalanan na malalaki kayo. Wait up. Why are you still here? You should be inside na, warm ups and all.”

He flashed his infamous smirk, showing his biceps. “Wala e. Batas ‘to e.”

“‘Di nga?” I asked, incredulous.

“Oo nga,” sagot nya, habang nakangisi. “Tss. Wala ‘to. Walang tiwala sa kapatid nya.”

I wrinkled my nose. “Overconfidence results to defeat kasi.”

“Asa, ” snorted kuya Jacob. “I’mma beat those Cen U losers. Hintay ka lang, sis. Wala kang kabilib-bilib sa kuya mo e.”

Nagtawanan lang kami. All the while, pinagtitinginan kami ng mga tao. It felt unnerving kahit papano. Alam ko naman na may hitsura naman ako at marunong din makipagsabayan sa pagporma. Still, I didn’t like being stared at.

“Balita ko may bago daw sa kabila ah?” simula ni kuya Chris.

“Ah, ‘yung Mercedez?” Ngumisi si kuya Jacob. “Wala naman ‘yun. Kahit magsama pa sila ni Gutierez.”

“Just don’t lose your guard. You know better than that,” matahimik na dagdag ni kuya Andrei.

“Oo naman, tol. Ako pa ba?”
Kuya Jacob suddenly looked at his phone.
“Start na daw,” he announced. “I better get going.”

“Good luck, kuya,” sabi ko, sabay yakap na rin.

“Galingan mo, bro,” Kuya Andrei said, his eye smile showing.

“Ikaw na bahala. Kaya mo yan.”
“Ipanalo mo, tol.”

We tapped his shoulder and entered the arena complex together. Pagkatapos, naghiwa-hiwalay na kami papunta sa kanya-kanyang mga kaibigan namin.

When I got back to my seat, Ahron faced me. “What’s up?”

“Moral support daw,” I said with a laugh.

“Seconds before the game?” She muttered, “Weirdos.”

‘Di na ‘ko nakasagot pa ’cause in a beat, the game finally started.

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Decoding The Boys 

In my opinion, there are three major rules that every girl must obey at all times.

First, follow the Girl code.

Second, decode the Martian language. (Language of guys)

And third, learn the Player Archetypes.

If you know all these, then you’re good to go. You can guarantee that you’re safe, kahit anong mangyari.

College life?

Psh.

Kayang kaya.

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False Confessions | A Scene

Today, I met her. No, it wasn’t our first meeting. She’d been my block mate since last semester but we weren’t introduced. Today was the first time we ever talked.

And she told me to piss off.

I wasn’t interested in her. Up to this day, there was nothing she did or said that could take my attention or make me turn in her direction but something might just change now.

I always knew she was feisty. Although she was quiet on better days, that’s why I didn’t notice her much before, there was too much activity around her. Boys were always on her heel and to brush them off, she would aggressively reject them. Sometimes, it was in a passive way. Quietly and indifferently refusing advances. But on most worse days, on most days, it was otherwise. She would resort to extreme measures.

Like pretending to like someone or forcing another to go on a date with her.

I actually didn’t like it, her. She’s a handful, always working up the people around her. Wherever she is, chaos would follow and I hate that it disrupts the peace I place around myself. She’s not to be blamed for it, I knew. I just avoided her for good measure. Honestly, I don’t understand why the boys like her so much. To me she is just like any other. Typical, just tougher.

But seeing her today changed some of that. Seeing her stand up for herself in ways only she could do roused my respect. Just a little, I gave her more credit.

Today started out like a drag. Routinary, no special anything. Plain and boring. The only change to this humdrum was when a professor called out the noise of the class and gave a surprise test. But even that was routined.

I was bored, like the usual, when I made my way to my car. The classes have finished. The day would end like the usual.

At least, it would seem that way until I heard a call.

“Silver!” called a block mate. “Can you drop by to the Science faculty? I think Ma’am Lorenzo is asking for you.”

In order to reach the Science building, I would have to walk to the quadrangle where many students were currently frolicking. To avoid the hassle, I opted to use the other route. I’d cross the yard at the back of the Art building to get to the Science building. No one stayed there that much. In fact when it’s lunch time, I often hung out there where it’s quiet and nice.

It was this thinking that made me walk all my way there. Maybe if I didn’t, I wouldn’t have seen this. And my life would continue like the usual: boring, uneventful but peaceful.

I heard them before I even saw them.

“C’mon, Lexi. Just a date. Why are you so coy?” the hooligans crowed.

“Shut up, jerk. I don’t want anything to do with any of you,” Lexi said, trying to break past the circle of tall boys currently blocking her way.

One of them, the one drinking a cup of juice, snickered. “Still playing hard to get? You think you’re all that?”

I should’ve helped her. But before I could, she raised a hand and swiftly slapped the lights out of the asshole. Enraged, the pathetic boy splashed all the orange juice down to her.

Lexi was dripped wet. Never minding the fact that her blouse was white and was beginning to flash her inner wear, she kicked the boy in the balls and hit the other boys, struggling to get out of their circle.

That’s when she saw me. Her eyes widened ever so slightly, hurt and anger flashing in quick seconds, and the others noticed me as well. They stopped their midway attempt to get even at her. Since they had seen me, they couldn’t move a muscle even if they tried.

“Piss off,” she spat at me and stormed her way out.

Without so much as any action, I let her leave. Looking back at it now, I regretted not doing anything.

If I had chased after her, how would have things changed? Would I be needing to let her go now?

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Her Elite Ways | Prelude


Prelude:

Summer. 2012.

Aaliyah Jacqueline Montevista

The night I lost my virginity, it was pouring hard. Akala ko nga hindi na kami matutuloy papunta sa bar. I was pissed. Annoying crazy rain. Umasa na ako.

Hindi pwedeng hindi kami umalis today. Kahit hindi na sa The Palace. Starbucks will do. Or Infinitea. As long as I can bail.

I wanted to get the fuck out so bad. I hated this house. Every second that I was here, I felt like puking.

I could get a condo pero fuck. My good-for-nothing, cheating and lying dad wouldn’t let me. He’s the law, figuratively and literally. I can’t defy him. After all, he’s Leonard fucking Montevista. A senator slash CEO and unfortunately, my only guardian.

Yeah. Lucky. Tangina.

At the first ring, I jumped to fetch my phone.

The familiar sound of deep laughter greeted me. “Yo.”

“Jani! Where are you?” I cried out. “You’re thirty minutes late.”

“I know, I know. I’m almost there. Give me five. Prepared ka na?”

“Yeah. Kanina pa.”

“Okay. Kasama ko si Joy. Papasok na kami ng village nyo.”

“Yeah, bilis. Dad might see you pa pag minalas.”

“Bakit, uuwi ba? I thought he’s abroad?”

“Changed plans. Just hurry up,” then I hung up.

I grabbed my purse and checked myself in the mirror. I was wearing my favorite. Black sleeveless cropped top and floral bandage skirt. Just to be sure, nagdala na din ako ng cardigan if it becomes too cold.

Highly doubtful, though.

I had different plans tonight, and if everything goes according to plan, not even this storm can stop me from going all out.

The doorbell rang. That’s my cue.

I combed my light brown locks first and reapplied my pink lippie before running down the stairs to meet the pair.

My best friends, Jani and Joy, are together. I’d known them since highschool kaya hindi na awkward na kasama ko sila kahit sila pa. They could kiss and make out there and I won’t care. Sanay na. Besides, I am often too busy with my own thing to pay any attention.

“Coast clear?” Joy asked me with a laugh, looking around the house.

“He’s not here,” I said to them.

“Nagpaalam ka ba?” Jani piped in.

I frowned. “No.”

“You should. Mag-aalala ‘yun.”

“Then all of this will be for nothing if I will.”

“Oo nga. Kaya nga prison break, e,” Joy added, making me laugh with her.

Jani sighed. “Sige, bahala ka.”

We ambled to the door. My impatience thinned when the maids and guards immediately blocked our way.

“Ma’am, bawal ka pong lumabas, sabi ng Daddy nyo po.”

“Nag-usap na kami ni Dad. Let us through,” I lied.

Kuya guard scratched his head. “Pero ma’am, sabi talaga ni sir bawal po. Mag-aalala po sa’yo ‘yun.”

Like hell he would. He’s probably too busy fucking different women not my mother right now.

“Just let me go, kuya. He won’t know I left kung ‘di nyo sasabihin.”

“Mawawalan kami ng trabaho nyan, Ma’am.”

“Dad won’t know. I swear he won’t even call tonight. Kung tumawag man, just say I’m sleeping. Sige na, kuya.”

It took some more persuasions before they finally let me leave. Why was I on such a lockdown? Nag-away kami ni Dad. I crashed his car while on my way home so he grounded me. He got mad at me for acting recklessly and I got mad at him for acting like a Dad when he didn’t for so many years. If I know, he’s only concerned about his name.

We had a row all night and he cut all my cards. Hindi nya alam, I have a spare. My lolo gave it to me. Syempre, hindi nya ‘yon alam just like the other things about me.

So ironic nga. Kung hindi ko pa naaksidente ang kotse nya, he probably wouldn’t even find out I partied all night. He’s too busy with his women. Ganon sya kapabaya. Like my mom whom left me with him.

But I’m not rebelling just to get his attention. Hell, I don’t want it. What I want is to get out of this hellhole and away from his network. He should’ve just sent me out. Kaysa nag-eeffort pa syang puntahan ang iba nyang pamilya sa ibang lugar.

The Palace was far from our home, which is in Quezon City. That’s why we barely frequent it but since they got a special party for tonight, we decided to ditch Tides and go there instead.

As expected, the place is full of skimpily dressed girls and rabid boys. They were dancing to the music blasting through the speakers.

The three of us made our way through the gyrating bodies to the VIP section and ordered our drinks. Tequila, our usual, and Johnnie Walker for Jani.

“Daming tao,” Joy complained.

I laughed at her. “Of course. Sikat, e.”

Jani informed, “They’ll open the pool na. Gusto nyo?”

I shook my head. “Not in the mood. Maybe later.”

We did several shots. When we were warmed up, I left the lovebirds alone and joined the center floor. Crazy and wild, I danced the night away. Nung nagsawa, I joined a group of people doing body shots. Several boys tried to hit it off with me. But they’re not the one I was looking for so I just shrugged their advances off. Subtly, but surely.

“Wanna go out of here?” They would say.

“Sorry. I’m with my friends,” I would answer.

Bumalik lang ako sa table when I had my fill of fun. Mamaya naman ulit.

Joy was already drunk. She was giggling at some text she received. Si Jani, he’s still okay. Since he’s driving, kontrolado ang intake nya.

“Gusto ko sana mag-pool, pero ang dami nila dun,” Joy told us.

“‘Di ka din naman hahayaan ni Jani. Not in that state,” I said, to which Jani nodded.

“You’re both drunk. Uwi na tayo?”

“Ha? Kakarating lang natin, a?” Joy whined.

“Kakarating? Two hours na tayo dito.”

“‘Yun nga. Maya na tayo.”

We danced and danced. At Joy’s behest, sumali ako sa drinking competition. First one to finish all the drinks. Jani was videographing as I downed shots without stop. Boys were hooting and hollering. Naririnig ko ang mga cat calls habang tinatalo ko ang iba.

Unfortunately for the others, I won. I flashed my fan boys a one big smile.

“Ibang klase. San mo dinala lahat ng beer na ‘yon?” Jani said with a laugh when I came back to them.

“Beer pa. Lasing ka na nyan,” Joy added.

Tumatawa akong bumalik sa table. I was very drunk. Huminto na ako sa pag-inom to let myself recover. We mostly just talked then. Some time later, Jani excused himself to answer a call.

As soon as he was out, Joy immediately turned to me, the gap between her brows creasing.

“Jaq, sure ka ba dito?”

She was talking about my plan, the reason why I suddenly asked them out tonight.

“Yes, I want to lose it tonight,” I said firmly.

“‘Di papayag si Janny na iwan ka namin.”

“Then don’t. I don’t need all night naman.” I smirked teasingly. “Mag-check in nalang din kayo.”

“Gaga. Pero sige nga. Kanino mo naman balak ibigay ‘yan?”

I went into deep thought and wandered my gaze around the bar. That’s a question I wanted to know the answer to as well. I’d been eyeing some guys. They were checking me out kanina pero ayoko. They’re the type to break the rules and that won’t work. It would ruin my plans.

If I would lose my virginity to someone, I needed to make sure no one would know. Kahit pa ‘yung guy.

I needed to make sure this one night stand would stay exactly that: a one night stand.

“Wait!” Joy suddenly exclaimed, eyes widening. “I have an idea.”

She disappeared into the crowd before I could even ask. I shrugged and downed another shot. Tipsy na ako.

When Joy came back, she was grinning wide. Tumatawa-tawa sya at medyo kinikilig. Lasing na din si gaga.

“Got you a date kaso may condition din. Like you.”

“Sino?” I asked agad.

“That’s the thing. Bawal mo din malaman kung sino sya.”

I raised my brows in question.

“Same reason as you. Ayaw ng complication.” She waggled her brows, smiling wide, as if she knew an inside joke. “I’m telling you, girl. Winner ‘to. Kaya bawal talaga sabihin kung sino pero putchaaa. Mamaya ihahatid kita sa room.”

She was so mad excited but I was skeptical.

“Ayoko.”

Her eyes widened. “Ha. Bakit?”

“Nakita ka na nyang pumunta dito. Kilala na nya ako.”

“E ‘di naman sya kausap ko. ‘Yung mga kasama nya. Wala din syang alam.” She laughed. “Kwentuhan mo ko mamaya, a?”

I looked at her weirdly. “Anong sasabihin ko? Na masakit ang una ko?”

“Hindi. Kung magaling ba sya. Curious ako.”

Natawa ako. “Marinig ka ni Jani.”

“E pano naman. Iba talaga ‘to,” she squealed. “Ang usapan, ihahatid kita sa hotel mamayang twelve. Ako na bahala kay Jani. Basta magtext ka kung hihintayin ka ba namin or what.”

“I can hail a cab. You can go. Have fun with your boyfie.”

“Gaga. May plano ka bang dun na matulog?”

“Hell no. Aalis ako kagad.” I grinned. “Parang Cinderella lang.”

“Cinderella porn version kamo. Wag kang mag-iwan ng glass slipper ha. Basta. Twelve, hahatid kita don.”

And that’s what she did exactly three hours after. Wala na akong masyadong matandaan by then. I’ve had too much to drink and my thoughts were hazy.

“7th floor. Dito na tayo,” Joy announced.

I heard myself giggling.

“Dito ka muna. Tignan ko kung may tao na sa room.”

I nodded and waited by the elevator, checking out the interior of the hotel. Not bad. By the looks of it, we were in a five star hotel.

I didn’t know how many minutes it took her but Joy came back some time later with a massive smile on her face. May hawak syang red blindfold.

I raised a brow and laughed. “Kinky ha.”

“No whips. No worries,” and she tied it over my eyes.

Next thing I knew, she was sitting me down on the bed.

“Sure na sure ka na ba dito? We can still back out.”

“I’m sure.”

“Mega sure?”

“It’s just sex, Yoj.”

“Yeah. Pero first mo ‘to, e. Ayaw mo bang maging special ‘yon?”

“I don’t need it to be special. Ayoko ng attachments. Besides, this night has meaning already. It’s my act of liberation.”

“Oo na. Anyway, papatayin ko ang ilaw para sure na sure na stick to the plans tayo.”

I nodded. Just a little, I started to get nervous. I felt her leaving so I tried to grab her. I ended up pulling at her dress.

“How can I make sure na hindi nya ako makikita?”

“He’s blindfolded, too.”

“What if he removed it?”

“He won’t, for sure ‘yon.”

“How are you so sure?”

“E kasi -” she stopped. “Shit. Muntik ko na masabi. Basta, trust me. ‘Di nya gagawin ‘yon. Tsaka, parehas lang kayong ‘di sigurado sa isa’t isa. Fair game lang.”

Convinced, I let her go. Narinig ko na lang ang pagsarado ng hotel room. For many minutes, I stayed sitting on the bed, thoughts running in my head.

Siguro naman hindi ako pinabayaan ni Joy? There couldn’t be any video cam hidden anywhere.

Also, who could this asshole be at ayaw din nya na habulin sya ng babae? Is he a fucking Adonis?

Well, I was about to find out. I couldn’t see him but if he couldn’t make me scream tonight, then his pride is bigger than his dick. He’s an asshole for even thinking girls will chase after him.

I laughed at my own thoughts. What a weird arrangement this was. Arranged sex. Yeah, I’m this crazy.

Ganito ako kaseryoso na kontrolin ang buhay ko. Not only that, I was this willing to go this far just to show my father he could never control me. He broke this family. I was breaking his plans for me.

I would give my first to a stranger to show him he can’t manipulate me. I refused to be that pathetic, obedient daughter. I won’t let him dictate me, my future and my dreams. No father will ever use his child for politics and business.

I hate him. No one can control me. No man can ever do.

Virginity is special to girls. Kapag nakuha ng lalaki ‘yon, they think they have power over you. I’m losing mine in this way to show myself and the world that no one will ever have that power.

Kasi it was my choice to lose it.

And this stranger won’t get to flaunt it dahil hindi naman nya ako nakikita.

Soon enough, the doors opened. Footfalls resonated as the stranger moved around the room.

“Fuck,” I heard him curse when he probably hit onto something.

His voice was deep, but not too much.

“This is the shittiest thing I will ever do. Blindfolds, amputa.”

I furrowed my brows and pursed my lips. This one’s got a temper.

“I thought you know the arrangement. You don’t want me to know you, ‘di ba?”

“Yeah,” he answered. “Lights off, pwede naman ‘yun.”

“Whatever. Just get on with it.”

This was probably the lamest preamble to foreplay ever.

“Hintay ka lang, babe. Before this night ends, I’ll fuck your lights out.”

I was drunk. It didn’t need a genius to figure out he was, too. Very. The moment he found his way to the bed, I caught a whiff of his boyish scent.

Despite myself, I started to feel excited.

“Are you sure you want this?” he asked as I felt him moving closer to me. He’s a breadth’s away now. I could feel his hand trail up my arm and neck. It stopped to my lips. “I can’t promise I can stop later. I’m drunk. If you don’t want this, sabihin mo na ngayon pa lang.”

His breath was fanning my face.

I took a deep breath and said, “Shut up and kiss me.”

“Feisty. No wonder.”

With his hands, he found my lips. I felt trails of butterfly kisses on my neck before he pulled me in for a deep kiss.

He tasted good. Nalalasahan ko ang ininom nyang alak habang sinisiil nya ako ng halik. His lips slanted and melded perfectly with mine, his tongue expertly moving around my mouth. He left blazing hot trails wherever his lips kissed and sucked. My skin was flaming to life. Damn, I was getting intoxicated. Whoever this was, he was no beginner.

I felt myself loosening up, beginning that foreign feeling of ache for him.

He pulled away and began working to remove my clothes.

“Why did you agree to this?” he asked in between heavy breaths.

“We’re here for different reasons.” I panted.

“Yeah but the first night is always special to girls. Why lose it like this?”

“If you want this night to continue, then follow the rules,” I said. “Rule number one. Stop asking questions.”

His boyish chuckle was my reply. I shivered at how sexy it sounded.

“Charming,” I heard him say. “Too bad this is the first and last.”


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